InsaneJournal

Current mood:

listless

I'm filling out my dorm application for WSU right now. It's crazy how fast it's coming up.

I'm still having a really hard time right now. I still haven't fully accepted Mom's cancer. Her surgery is the day she gets back from Paris, which breaks my heart that she'll be all jetlagged yet excited about the trip and then go through that. We'll know about a week or so after if she'll need chemo. If she does, we won't be going to Ireland this summer anymore because she won't have enough vacation days left after treatment. That'll be disappointing, but nothing compared to what my mom would have to go through.

I just don't know how to deal with all this. I'm about to take the biggest jump of my life and I feel like my whole world is just a giant collapsing mess with my mom being sick and my lack of time to do anything because of work/homework. Forever 21 fucking ate my life, you have no idea. I worked 6 days in 1 week. Claire came over Friday and we got high and that's pretty much the only thing I've done for myself since I started working. I just want to be at home with my family right now more than anything.